Small Steps - Grumpy Edition

I am grumpy. Not just grumpy; but G-R-U-M-P-Y.

I have been the past week. Constantly; not just occasionally. And not just GRUMPY, but moving into outright ANGER.

I am angry with God.

I have received flashes of God's grace this week, but not enough that my children notice. And they notice everything. They especially notice when Mom is grumpy. And I notice that they are becoming grumpy as well.

Why? What is causing this grumpiness? For what reason could I be angry with God?

Has He not given me a wonderful husband, for whom I am thankful each day?

Has He not given us 6 wonderful children?

Has He not given us a wonderful house in which to raise them?

Has He not provided for the care of this family?

What more could I possibly want that He hasn't already given?

And that, I think is the crux of the problem - I want more. Simplicity has moved out of my thinking and been replaced by more. I look back on the past week and a half or so, and realize I have not pulled out my Small Steps book. I have not immersed myself in Simplicity this past week.

We all know nature abhors a vacuum (probably not as much as my children abhor the vacuum - a little cleaning humor!) and when a vacuum occurs, something must fill it. Unfortunately for me, and the people around me, my vacuum has been filled with discontent and wanting more.

So I must go back to the beginning: SIMPLICITY.

I was trying to think of where to start and the prayer my 4 year old says before bed came to me. He has said this prayer since he was about 18 month old:

I LOVE YOU JESUS. THANK YOU, JESUS. I LOVE YOU JESUS.

That is it. Simple. And I am thinking this will be a good start.

I am off to Elizabeth's to read some more words of wisdom about Simplicity. Join us?