For a
virtue that wasn't a virtue, I seem to be having a difficult time of it lately.
Grace was supposed to be easy ~ I thought.
And then I remembered - or was that God reminding me? - that Grace has been
something I have been pondering for quite a while.
We are in a time for our family that will make us or break us.
Really.
After 21 years of marriage and six children, this could be do or die. And I have to say, I think we are on the 'make us' road. Occasionally we have a small detour, but not so big that it is more trouble to go back to our 'make us' road than to continue on the detour.
And God has been good enough to give us the means to stay on this road:
HIS GRACE IN ADORATION
A little over two years ago I called a friend who has been homeschooling her seven children for the past 20 years. And I sobbed: "I don't want to do this anymore! I want my children to go away! How do you keep going?" Now, don't get me wrong, I didn't hate my children, just wanted a little peace, and maybe a clean house for
one day!
And my wise friend (and of all my friends, God gracefully pointed me to her) told me she survived the early years of schooling many small children by going to weekly, sometimes bi-weekly, Adoration. She suggested I try that for a month before throwing in the towel after just nine years of schooling at home.
So began the search for Adoration. One church 5 miles away had weekly Adoration during the day on Tuesdays. Good, I thought, for emergency situations, but not feasible for permanent (or at least for one month) Adoration. Somehow, leaving during the day and having my oldest watch the littles so I could be with God to be a better Mom just seemed wrong.
The other church close to me with Perpetual Adoration was a 25 minute drive. Perpetual was good, I could go at night and not abdicate my responsibilities too much. Husband would be home and littles would be sleeping: I decided to go at 9:00 at night. Leave at 9:00, arrive at 9:30, stay until 10:30, and be home by 11:00.
I mentioned this plan to my friends at Bible Study the next Monday and asked if anyone wanted to join me. 2 wonderful ladies said yes, and Thursday was the night picked and off we went a few days later.
It was HARD.
Some nights I didn't want to go. I had ladies coming to my house to go with me, I had to go. Some nights I was tired, those were the nights I "rested in the Lord" at Adoration (a really nice way to say I fell asleep.) Some nights we had great conversations to and from, some nights we were lost in our own thoughts. Some nights we shared what had happened to us, some nights we kept it to ourselves. And we continued to go. And about a year ago, my husband started to join us. And a little bit after that, his friend, the husband of my friend, joined us as well. So now we had 5 people traveling to be with Jesus every Thursday night.
And the cost of gas started going through the roof! And I started to doubt that I could keep going. Really, I have been reduced to equating all things to the cost lately (another post, to be sure.)
Anyway, as I said: God is Good!
The church with which we are loosely affiliated because of our homeschool group started daily Adoration from 11am to 10pm. YIPPEE! We now only have to travel 8 minutes to get to Adoration. And Father does the full benediction with us at 10pm every Thursday night cuz there are so many of us there. Very Cool.
And THAT is what is keeping us on this 'make us' road.
Adoration.
That time with Jesus.
A time to receive HIS GRACE.
In silence (and can I say, that is my second favorite part of Adoration, and occasionally ties with being with Jesus as the reason I go.)
I actually had this picture:
as the reason for my post this week: How I have been receiving God's Grace: Praying the Liturgy of the Hours (and I love the pod casts of this), saying the Divine Mercy Chaplet - over and over, and Small Steps.
But really, the end result is much better. God rocks!
I can only receive God's Grace when I am listening. When I am still. When I am silent.
I seem to get distracted easily in my house: what with schooling, cleaning, laundry, cooking, the computer, finances, children, etc.
Adoration is my favorite place to find God's Grace. I am learning to find It other places. But I really have to have the time with Him alone, to truly absorb It.
Off to
Elizabeth's to see what others have to say about Grace!